i just cried. not because of the competition... not because things did not go as planned today... i realise i miss timo a lot! A LOT! like we just had a chat and he ask me abt the competition and stuff... and it really touched me... i mean...he bothered... he was there to encourage me! he smsed me when i was in sch.... he was on holiday and he bothered! i told him not to call cause prepaid very ex... but he still called.. and i am really very touched... even though i received encouragment and stuff... but his was really important to me.... his simple words "go there and have fun... other stuff does not matter", it really warmed my heart to know that my bro is always there for me... lots of things have been happening recently... there was times when i totally lost trust in my bro... i was disappointed in him.... i wondered whether my bro changed or not... but i decided to respect his decision... and today i felt that my bro is back! the caring loving bro! hhaah! asked him abt my birthday present... it was suppose to be a watch but got delayed... den i told him there was a watch i like... he told me to go and buy and he will pay but cannot too ex! hahahhahaha! THANKS TIMO! I LOVE YOU!
i seriously love my bros a lot now! sadly timo is not in singapore... i mean our relationship was building up... i suddenly felt close to my bro... den he has to leave... still remember that day i cried a lot! from the airport until i reach home i still crying... haiz... now i still crying! lolz. maybe cause i am stress and stuff... and just need someone who bothers to listen to all my craps... i know my friends will be there for me and stuff... but i can't keep bothering them... they have their own life.... their own probs.... and now at home...i feel that there is no one to talk to.... theo is always so busy and so stress with his own stuff... parents dun really understand how i feel.... even if they do... daddy is always so busy working.... mummy is stress taking care of us... and i dun want to trouble her anymore... i dun want her to worry abt me... haiz... guess now it the time for me to grow up and settle the probs myself... it is time to be independent i guess...
I HATE GROWING UP! IT SUCKS! why can't we always be a kid.... it is so much easier... haiz.
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