A lot of things have been happening lately.... lots of things has change... now everything seems so different... i can't seem to keep up with all this.... i am just very lost now... dunno wat i'm doing... i guess i just need time to adapt to all the changes...
this year seems to be a bad year for me.. i seem so stress and i just can't seem to be happy... my whole life seems to be changing... i want my old life back! .....
who am i living for? what am i living for? i seriously dunno... haiz... now i seem to be just spending my time away... doing things that are stupid...
what's love.... i can't seem to feel it anymore... love is not in my dictionary anymore... love?.... love? what's that... just another word.... haiz... love from friends? family? i can't feel them.... my heart now is only filled with pain, hatred.... i became a cold-blooded freak... i dun deserve love... i dun deserve care.... i dun deserve friendship... i am born to be a loner.... i came to the world alone... and am going to leave this world alone... so why bother.... just be a loner... it will not make a difference...

i really thank those who care about me... n keep telling me not to emo... i guess i disappoint u guys again... jus give me time to sort out my thoughts... now my life is just a mess... it is not ur fault that i dun feel love... so u guys dun have to show me more care and stuff... u guys have really shown me what friendship is.. but the problem lies with me.... i am locking myself away... i guess i jus need time to heal all the pain... so pls just treat me normally.... and dun worry... i won't do anything to myself... i am fine... just need time.....
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