i realised there r a lot of strong ppl around me... like compared to me... they are so much stronger... they went through more than me... and they are still surviving... enjoying life.. and even though i went through less... i already feel like dying... like today we went to pick up timo's friend... he met with a car accident few years back... and now... he is jus different.. his future as a ruby captain was bright... in a spilt second.. all was gone... but when i saw him today... he is still positive.. lively... to be frank today was the first day i talked to him... n it was jus enjoyable... like usually when i am in someone's car... i will not talk much and stuff.... but i and him ended up in a convo... which was quite interesting... although he was the one asking most of the qns... but yeah... and he sang! HE SANG APOLOGISE! lolz. i was sort of singing it too... and then i heard him singing... so we ended up singing together... HAHAH! =P. He's brave... and i respect him... there is other person... today she jus came back.. and i was glad she was smiling and stuff... still her usual self... haiz... all of them are just so strong...
yeah.. i am half emo-ing... lolz. dunno lah.. jus damn sad that timo is leaving in two days... time passes so fast... and i will not be able to send him off.. how sad is that lah.... haiz... i think tmr i will start emo-ing already...-.-'''.. it is not that i like emo-ing and stuff... but when i feel sad... seriously.. no matter how hard i try to be happy... i fail... haiz... i dun want timo to leave....
tmr there is chinese test.. haven't finish studying yet... =(.. haiz... k gtg n study! sigh....

after reading the letter today... i was tongue-tied... i dunno what made u feel that way... and i am thinking what did i do to make u feel that way... u cried because of me... and i guess nth can make u feel better... i thought we could get over this... but i guess it was harder than i thought... i dunno how to talk to u now... like when u cried... i could just go and cheer u up... and it seemed so easy.. but after that.. i wanted to talk to u... but sumthing is stopping me... i seriously dunno how to continue... i seriously dunno what to do now... i hate this... i hate everything....

Can time really heal everything... Does everything happen for a reason... i dun see the reason of putting me through all this... all i feel is pain... i jus want to run away...
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