A new stage.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

"By the time you read this, I hope to be dead.

You can't undo something that's happened; you can't take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do. I guess I should tell you, Don't blame yourself; this isn't your fault, but this would be a lie. We both know that i didn't get here by myself.

You'll cry at my funeral. You'll say it didn't have to be this way. You will act like everyone expects you to. But will you miss me?

More importantly- Will i miss you?

Does either one of us really want to hear the answer to that question?"

-Nineteen Minutes Jodi Picoult

yup. i am addicted to the book... love this paragraph a lot... cause it reflects a lot on how ppl are i guess... hypocrites? Isn't it strange that only when someone dies... suddenly everyone becomes appreciative. Suddenly everyone acts that they are so sad that it happened. Suddenly everyone seemed that they cared. Isn't all this a bit too late? And what's the acting for... deep down everyone still doesn't really care... so what's the acting for?

"Appreciate the ppl who should be appreciated when they are still alive. Don't wait till it's too late."

And what about all the words they said b4... all the insults... all the bullying? Suddenly everyones backpedals? Is it to lessen the guilt they feel?

Somebody recently asked me... Don't i feel insulted/hurt when my friends like make fun of me..like joke about me... i thought about it for a while.. and my answer is no.. cause i know they are just kidding and stuff... and at the end of the day... i know they are still my friends and i can still lean on them when i'm in need. I guess i'm a person who can take jokes and stuff...

But not everybody is like me.. some ppl just can't take jokes.. and sometimes we are just unaware about the harm our actions and words can bring... thinking that everything is just a joke.. the person will not be affected by it. but how would u noe? are u him/ her? ppl may be wearing a mask.. pretending that all is a joke.. pretending that it's ok... but the truth is inside he/her is hurt... bleeding.. but to fit in.. they just have to pretend.... so maybe we just have to think about the things we say.. the things we do.. whether we crossed the line... sometimes a sentence or an action can cause a person to do things that we cannot imagine... it may create a monster.

yeah... the book Nineteen Minutes is very nice.. haven't finish the book.. but i can say i'm addicted to it.. going to finish it by today.. i hope.. only halfway through... but very nice story.. about this boy who have been bullied and his revenge is murder.. yup. i like Jodi Picoult books. she always write about stories that are... complicated? lolz. just read it.. it's nice.... Sister's keeper is nice too... but the ending is a bit sad.. yeah... the movie is not as nice as the book.. cause they change a few parts.. especially the ending.. yup. go read it too! the next book i'm planning to read is Change of Heart.. but dunno whether mummy allow me to buy or not.. =(((.. yup yup.. enough of blogging.. time to read! =))))) can't wait to finish the boook.... why am i such a slow reader.. =(((. lolz.

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