Idk... My life seems to be the same as F451 already... After the bible study with Miss Yang... I just... I don't know... Realised that I have not been living... That I don't even know what my life is all about... That I... Have been living in fake happiness... That I'm not happy... I don't know... That day... I really really went to sch in a good mood... But after bible study... Things just change... Maybe.. Maybe... God just want my life to have a major change... So that I can know him? I don't know... So that day... I really really wanted to be cheerful... But somehow... I failed.

So yeah... Now things haven't improved... And idk why all these are happening... A lot of things are bothering me.. And there is a lot of probs. There are a few ppl in my life who matters to me... Well....they mattered... But now... We seem to be drifting apart... They still matter to me as much... But do I matter to them? Maybe they just gave up... Cause... I'm just too good at hurting ppl... I have been so... Busy? With what.. Idk.. But I guess that I just totally forgot abt them... Maybe all these while... I didn't even matter to them... Maybe all these while... It has been one sided... I don't matter to anyone...