U are stabbing into my heart again and again..

Was I stupid to believe all that u said.. did I not get the hint maybe I'm not needed anymore? I should be less dependent on u.. was that a hint for me to go away..?

Maybe I wasn't needed in the first place.. maybe I was the one who wanted to be closer in the first place and all along u didn't need me in the first place.. u were just entertaining me.. why do u need me when u gave ur sister already.. that's good enough right.. cause that's what u are telling me.. I have my sister.. I don't need to tell u anything anymore.. I don't need to depend on u actually.. I was just here for u to depend on me..

Then I rather not have this friendship.. sometimes u complain that Im not there for u.. then I'm here now.. but ask urself.. do u ever want to depend on me.. ask me for help? I know ur sis is more important than me.. and will always be.. but now.. Suddenly.. I am cut out of ur world..

U are stabbing my heart again and again.. I'm trying to improve things.. to be the best fren u used to have.. but I don't rmb caring hurts that much before.. did u change or did I change? Are u so caught up with ur new world that I no longer belong too.. or am I just expecting more..

Sometimes I feel maybe ur new world will be better off without me.. I know it is my fault for being so persistent in trying to stay.. but it hurts to leave.. having a hope that maybe I may be wrong.

Tell me what to do.. why does everything I do feels so wrong.. why does it feel that u are avoiding me.. why does it feel like suddenly I have to control this whole friendship.. and I don't want to control it. Take control.. tell me what to do..